Pretty Colors and Shiny Objects

seraphimfire @ 2008-04-19T08:02:00

2008-04-19T14:12:02Z

I know it's been a few weeks, but I'm not the only one procrastinating with an update so there.

I'm going to copy Thom here.

School: Two full weeks left and then finals. I've got two papers to write that I know of. One of my finals I'm not worried about, but the other three... Creative Writing's final is based on all the handouts that I've neglected to keep, so that's going to be interesting. I failed (a B) the last test in Humanities so I have to completely ace the last quiz, project, and test in order to maybe save my grade. I don't even know what my grade is in there... Political Science should be okay if I study hard for it like usual. I think we might only get through the current chapter and not even reach the last one, meaning our final would be over two chapters. I'm cool with that :)

The Mike and Jayce thing: I'm still adjusting to the whole thing, and I'm still surprised my skin hasn't turned green. Mostly it's when Mike says something like, "Last night me and Jayce..." or "Jayce told me when we woke up this morning..." Just thing like that. Plus now I'm mad at Jayce. He "accidentally" let Luna escape and figured good riddance. He hates her for some reason and Mike tells me he was perfectly content to let her be out on her own, getting hit by cars or starving to death. He didn't care. Mike said the only reason he let her back in when she came back was because he told him to. Then she got out again when Jayce's siblings left the door open and I figured she'd be gone forever. But she came back again and Mike was home so she got let in. But Jayce still wants to get rid of her. He's probably going to take her to the Humane Society, which is better than abandoning her to die. I just can't believe he was okay with that! He was the one who rescued her from abuse in the first place, and now he doesn't care if she starves to death. Unbelievable.

UNC: My application is being reviewed now that they finally have all the information they need, and I should get a response within a few weeks. Hopefully that will be enough time to get an adviser and get registered for all the classes I need. I heard from some people doing a fundraiser last week that it only costs $1000 a semester, which is much better than 4. I guess I'll have to see.

My debit card finally came, and now I'm just waiting on my PIN number. It's one more small step into adulthood, yay!

I asked for more hours at work, about 25 instead of the usual 19 or so I'm getting now. Kassia has like 27, I'm sure it can be done. Also, that way I'll be making about $600 a month (lame I know, but good for me), and I'll be able to save more for the fall. I should still be looking for scholarships, but now that I don't need them so badly I'm lacking in motivation even more than I was before. I'll try my best though.

Oh Aims...

2008-04-04T17:40:32Z

Why can't I stay at you forever?

I have no money for UNC for the whole year. I need $8000. I am seriously dreading scholarship searching the whole rest of the year and into summer and probably into the fall. Lame and it sucks and I'm really mad and frustrated and I wish I didn't have to go to school full time but I need it to stay on my parents' insurance. Stupid needing medicine...

Ahhhhh!!! I'm really frustrated right now.

seraphimfire @ 2008-03-29T15:45:00

2008-03-29T21:46:49Z

As usual, everything turns out to be my fault. After literally hundreds of text messages, it is revealed that they tried to tell me what was going on and that I would never listen. Of course. Now I feel like an ass and I'm trying to get caught up on Michael's life while choking back sobs of jealousy and despondency. Lovely.

They should put a break right in the ... crap

2008-03-28T14:01:25Z

What is Jayce's dream come true is my worst nightmare. Maybe over-exaggerating, but only a little. That stupid boy has been hounding Mike for months to move in with him, to which Michael always said, "I'll see if I can afford it." I thought that was his way of saying no. Turns out they've been planning this all along and thoughtfully decided to clue me in yesterday. Mike also, on a semi-unrelated note, texted me last night (I was with him all day and he waited until night to tell me, go figure) that his sister heard from someone that we were engaged. Ha! The irony is so perfectly timed. Mike is starting a new life with Jayce, not me you stupid people.

Apparently it's in Eaton, but that's where the good things end. I know it's not the end of the world, but ... so many things are going through my head that I just have to be alone for a while.

And they're both SO excited about it too. They texted each other back and forth all day yesterday. Jayce was like, "Ooh I'm gonna go pack. Ooh, I'll get you a key." And Mike was like, "Ooh, I wonder if Jayce and I can have a cat."

The sad thing is, I had to steal Mike's phone and read his text messages to even know half of what's going on. For example, one of Jayce's messages said, "Did you tell Nikki? Or are you going to let her find out?" The little bastard wasn't even going to tell me that he was stealing my boyfriend! He wasn't FREAKING going to TELL ME!!!! I am sooooo pissed at him I just want to punch him in the face.

They don't any stuff to live on their own! Can they pay for car payments and cell phone bills and other bills and buy groceries and things you need to live? Towels and laundry soap and silverware and shampoo? Do they realize how much this is going to cost??

For instance, Michael is going to college to become a computer scientist. He's got a great job and is now moving out with some idiot to begin his own life. Me. I'm probably not going to college because I have a crappy job and I can't afford it and I don't know what I would study anyway. I live with my parents for the same reason as above. My. Life. Sucks. It's not going anyway. And I kind of wanted Mike and I to experience this momentous occasion together. Not that we'd move in together, but that we'd leave our parents' houses at the same time. It feels like he's growing up and moving on without me and I'm left with nothing but a steaming pile of confusion.

Also, everyone by now should know that I'm an extremely jealous and selfish person. Jealfish, really. I hate it when the two spend any time together without me, and now they're going to be FREAKING LIVING WITH EACH OTHER. It's going to be hard to get used to.

Plus (they just keep going), now Mike will be able to save no money for OUR eventual life together, because he'll be too busy paying for the one he has now. Including my monumentous screw up that lost my best job ever, at this rate we will never be able to get married and have our own Jayce-free life together.

It would be nice if he informed me of these life-changing decisions as they somewhat affect me as well, but whatever. I'm tempted just to tell him, You have your life and I have mine. If they happen to intersect I'll see you there. Not meaning that as I want to break up with him, oh no definitely not, I just feel like he's leaving me out of his life now and I kinda just don't care what he does anymore. If he wants to spend all his money struggling to live out in stupid town when he had a nice place at home, whatever. That's another thing! WHY is he doing this? If he was unhappy at home, thats NEWS to me. Which apparently he was, because he says it's always crowded at his house and has too many people. What do I care anyway... His mom didn't think I would even have a problem with this, and doesn't even know how to spell my name.

And another thing! Jayce is notoriously irresponsible and bad with money. If he loses his job or can't pay rent, what's Michael to do?

I hope I can get used to this. I hope everything will be all right in the end. Mostly it's just my jealfishness that is getting in the way of them being happy. After this rant, my attitude will be this: I'm sure you'll be very happy together. Enjoy your life. I'll be over here if you need me.

seraphimfire @ 2008-03-27T17:53:00

2008-03-27T23:53:55Z

Mike and Jayce are moving in together in a couple weeks. ... ... ... WHEN THE HELL DID THIS HAPPEN??????!!???

seraphimfire @ 2008-03-20T10:01:00

2008-03-20T16:03:30Z

Mykie didn't feel well yesterday, so no zoo. And now my spring break is over. Back to work and doing homework. At least I don't have to work Easters. I'll probably be doing homework. Super lame.

I'm getting better at the pirate game though. Right now it's worth about $7. It costs $15 a month to play after my trial runs out... Still debating. I feel left out when Mike talks to his guild friends with his fancy microphone thing. No one types at me for nothing. Sad. And I can't afford one. More sad.

I had a soda yesterday! Waaay too fizzily now that I'm not used to it. Won't be doing that again for a while.

They should put a break right in the middle of Spring

2008-03-11T20:57:57Z

Cuz I sure need one. Luckily our Early Civ teacher let us have Thursday off, yay! Only two midterms, yay!

We decided to uphold our tradition of going to the zoo after debating seeing the Gold exhibit at the museum. But, as Mike pointed out, the zoo is not air conditioned so it would be better to go earlier before it gets too hot. Good thinking. For dinner I wanted to go to this neat, small, inexpensive Italian restaurant not far from the museum, but Mike doesn't like driving in Denver so we're coming back to Greeley to the Olive Garden. A little bummed; I wanted to try something new and neat and maybe make a new tradition, but oh well. He's a stubborn stinkball and I listen to him.

Plus I like Olive Garden. Me likey breadsticks! And the zoo!! Koalas! And elephants!

Tawny likes to sit in my window. It's his little throne.

seraphimfire @ 2008-03-09T16:56:00

2008-03-09T22:59:53Z

So, everybody at Marbleslab is looking for another job except me... No one is happy with the way things are run. For example. If you need to have an employee with more duties because another is leaving in the summer, the correct thing to do would be to train an existing employee and hire someone at the bottom. Marbleslab's policy is to hire someone from their youth group and teach them everything right off the bat without having had worked there for seven and a half months. Cuz that makes total sense. Stupid work. I just wish I could have a job that I was happy with.

Lucky Michael. He came to visit me and rode with a couple of his work friends. As they walked away all matching and talking and laughing I felt very lonely indeed.

We saw Penelope yesterday and it was very good. I also saw a trailer for PRINCE CASPIAN!!!! Finally!!!!! Since the first one came out around my eighteenth birthday it's awesome to finally have another one! I'm so very excited!!

seraphimfire @ 2008-02-26T20:09:00

2008-02-27T03:22:13Z

My first entry from my very own brand new computer!

It's been a long hard journey to get here and it's not even over yet. Right off the bat my monitor has some huge scratches in it, but they're livable. Yeah, I could try to send it back and get a new one, but I'm tired of all the hassle! It's fine anyway.

Then the computer started wailing when we turned it on. Turns out my heatsink over my processor wasn't attached properly, and it was totally overheating. 95 degrees C overheating. That's about 203 in Fahrenheit. Yikes. So we fixed that and managed to get Windows installed, antivirus, a processor temp monitor, firefox, and the essentials. I'm working on getting all my stuff from the other computer moved over and set up just the way I want it. My disk drives are formatting right now, so soon I should be able to.

Making your own computer is crazy!

On a happier note, Mike's birthday is tomorrow! I'm going to go make him a chocolate silk pie.

You littered, so you deserve cancer

2008-02-22T01:47:22Z

Ah, Anthropology. Fun class.

So I haven't updated in a while. I get to open by myself on Saturday, and I hope I remember everything. It's nowhere near as complicated as Carmike, but I would still take that back in a heartbeat.

Anyway, my computer is ALMOST done. I got my video card today, and I get to send in for a rebate, so that's cool. I'm just waiting on the monitor. Mike is bringing me XP (yay!) and Jayce is letting me borrow a keyboard until I can afford to get a new one (the one I was going to use has an old connection that my computer doesn't support, lol). I'll get pictures up when it's all done. It's puuuuurdy.

I'm stopping drinking soda. Just decided to kick a bad habit, and that was the one. Yay! Two days so far. Not a major accomplishment, but I'm going to do good.

I dun know what else is new...

The Carmike people are stupid. Mike said two former friends of mine asked him to a strip club, and then he wondered why I was offended and felt disrespected. Hence when the "former" began. Whatever. If he doesn't want to be offended by that... Whatever. I wasn't happy. The people he works with are stupid. I like my people much better. *Sticks tongue out at Carmike*

New room pics!

2008-02-05T22:12:53Z

Still waiting on the computer, but here are some highlights from my room redecorating. More are are MySpace.

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The ceiling without any texture.

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Textured and painted.

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Walls after wall and trim painting.

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New bed!

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Tawny investigates my new desk.

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Tawny investigates my new shelf.

Everything is done except getting my computer. My harddrive should be arriving within a few days!

Boysened!

2008-02-02T17:00:03Z

Being on my mom's account makes me miss Ad Blocker, loi.

Work last night was annoying. For some reason we had a plethora of middleschoolers and then some guy on the phone thought I was racist. Weird. Other than that we weren't too busy and Ryne was happy I had the Corpsebride soundtrack on my iPod. Silly. We also completely cleaned out the fudge and caramel holders, which involved scraping burnt and crusty fudge off the sides with a very large knife and blasting them with searing hot water. Dangerous stuff, really. It was fun :)

Hopefully it won't be busy today because I work the 3-7 by myself. Lame.

Isn't my room done yet?

2008-01-28T18:31:19Z

I haven't forgotten to post pictures! I just got all the hanging stuff on my walls yesterday and it's almost done. I need to find room for a few more things and we need to get the window blinds on, which will be a while yet. Mom said it would take a couple weeks. To make a window blind! How ridiculous. Anyway, so as soon as all that's done I will give everyone and idea of what happened.

Ha. "Everyone". Like it's more than two people. Lol. Love you guys.

Lost another job

2008-01-27T17:52:13Z

But this time it's a good thing. Jason and Jodi, and the new owners Karl and Andrea have made the Slab much better. We have only five employees, so we're all getting lots of hours and I got some afternoon shifts where I *gasp* don't have to close. We also got raises, I got a key, we now get 30% off, and all kinds of cool stuff. We also got an espresso machine, which is delicious.

So I quit Gamestop. I had no hours again this week so there was really no point anyway. My card has five bucks on it. I think I'll buy an ice cream.

Marbleslab was close to closing though!! Rob and Teri said that if no new owners stepped up, they were closing the doors for good. I'm going to give Karl a hug. That was a close one.

Post-Cloverfield

2008-01-20T20:06:53Z

I have a problem. I get WAY much too involved in movies for my own good. That movie was intense and traumatic for me. It's a phenomenal movie, I just don't know how I feel about it yet.

I'm so glad Mike was with me! He let me hide in his shoulder and make his hand numb. I told him that I get involved in movies, and the sweetheart said, "I know. That's why I kept talking to you, so you would be okay." He stayed even though he had to use the restroom since the beginning! Also, there was a part when two characters who loved each other were separated and the girl was trapped and hurt. The guy wanted to go back for her no matter what, and Mike said he would come back for me too :). He's so amazingly wonderful. I don't think I would have made it through the movie without him, honestly. I felt like I wanted to cry for several hours afterward, and yes, it gave me nightmares. I need to stop putting myself in the character's place...

Darn

2008-01-19T01:49:05Z

So the book we borrowed wasn't the right one, so we have spend another fifty or so dollars getting the right one so I can do my homework! Unfortunately, after buying it from Amazon, I learned that it would actually be cheaper to get it from the bookstore. I texted Mike to see if we could cancel the order, but he's not responding... I hope we can... Lame.

Also, the thing we tried to do to make the router work better didn't work. It's not a supported version. We did get a very funny message though:

Update are failed.

The first week of school

2008-01-18T15:17:51Z

It's always hectic, but so much more this semester. Our Spanish class was canceled due to lack of people wanting to learn Spanish, so I had to scramble to find another class. I joined Cultural Anthropology a day late to realize that the teacher was some crazy lady who had jumped right into notes and teaching and stuff.... so now I'm playing catch up with that one. And books! I did pretty good price wise, ordering from Amazon, but of course they take a while to get here. I was worrying about the one for political science (which Mike joined in lieu of Spanish), but it came yesterday and had evidently been shipped from New York so, no small wonder. I'm awaiting the arrival of my book for creative writing, and getting ready to beat up Brian if he keeps forgetting to bring us Allie's Early Civ book... I need it to do homework and stuff!

Hmm, how much did I spend on books? Rounding, $65 for anthropology, $44 for polisci, $50 for creative writing, and free for early civ. Plus we sold our old government book and have the Spanish books on the market with a potential buyer who has credit card problems or something. Still trying to get rid of the psychology book that no one in their right mind wants...

seraphimfire @ 2008-01-12T16:57:00

2008-01-13T00:55:19Z

Mike read his schedule wrong and he has to work at noon tomorrow instead of six. So it'll be just like today, except I won't have to paint anymore! Yay! And I have an idea of where everything will fit back in, including my cube organizer and my desk. Soon it will be complete. A guy is coming to measure the window on Wednesday to get the blinds made, and the carpet will hopefully be here by next weekend, so I will only have about another week and a half of living in Andi's room. Whoo! It's going to look sooooo good when it's done. I'll have to put up pictures for sure.

School on Monday! I ordered my political science book since I'm pretty sure we'll use it, since it's the same teacher as last time and we wore out that book like crazy. Only paid forty bucks for it instead of the eighty I would have spent at the bookstore. Yesss. Only one book to go, but I don't know which version I need so I'll have to wait until school starts to find out. And I don't know if my creative writing class needs a book, but I'm very excited for that class.

seraphimfire @ 2008-01-12T10:15:00

2008-01-12T18:10:18Z

Oh I'm tired of not having my room, lol. We looked at carpet yesterday and ordered a really pretty blue gray color this morning. But it'll be another week until we get it and then have to get it installed. Meanwhile the trim that I painted yesterday was all stuck to the newspaper and still needs to be repainted. Plus we have to put a clear coat on the walls and touch up the ceiling to get the blue off. It will never be done!! Gahh!!

I can't go to Mom's birthday dinner because I'm working, yet I never seem to be working enough. I have two freaking jobs and still can't manage part time. I miss the Carmike..........

seraphimfire @ 2008-01-10T08:43:00

2008-01-10T16:44:07Z

I'm ready for school! Already sold one of my old books the day I posted it. Cool.

I got all A's yay! And Mike got a 3.54 GPA which is absolutely amazing and I'm very proud of him!

Monday!

Typing's easier than talking...

2008-01-06T18:38:33Z

It's been a busy week really. Ever since school got out I've been busy. So has Mike, so I haven't seen much of him in... like two weeks. Crazy.

Anyway, Andi and I got some of our teeth stolen on Wednesday and it wasn't as bad as I was freaking out about. I'd never been put under anesthesia before or had surgery or anything, but Dr. Bley was super nice and everything went well. It was a heckuva expensive procedure though -- nearly $1600 for me and $1800 for Andi. Hers was supposed to be harder, but mine ended up being that way because some nerves were in the way.

It was nice though. I got a nice blanky and they numbed my arm before sticking me with the I.V. so it didn't hurt as much. I was out like a light, but not before remembering that the doctor had the same professor for chemistry as I did for biology at Aims. Why I'm able to remember that I have no idea. The next thing I remember is waking up in a little room with no idea how I got there (freaky) and the nurse showing in my wonderful boyfriend to take me home. He took care of me all afternoon until he had to go to work -- getting me ice and a blanket and all the sweet stuff he does.

I iced and took medicine for three days, being careful and all that stuff, but to no avail. I poofed up a little and it still hurts even today. Meanwhile Miss Sideways Teeth quit her meds and ice halfway through the first day and feels totally fine. The unjustice!!

It was hectic trying to get my work schedules covered though, since neither remembered I would be unconscious for a while. I worked Friday, and it was crazy busy for some reason. Lame.

Then Saturday we started work on my room, finally!! We took all the texture off the ceiling and redid it, and today we're cleaning and painting the walls. Meanwhile my room has been transported to the office and my bed is Andi's floor. Oh well; it's worth it for how cool my room will turn out. Maybe I'll put up some pictures when it's done.

Right now I really want life to go back to normal. Have school, ONE job, and youth group. I want Thom to come back from stupid England and Spain. I want to go to Spain!!

Well I'm going to go see if my mom is finished painting the ceiling so we can go get wall paint. And so I can get painting clothes out of my closet.

One more thing! Mike put the Sweeny Todd soundtrack on my iPod. Sweeeeeeet.

Christmas update

2007-12-28T17:57:12Z

I know it's late, but oh wells. Starting with Christmas Eve. I didn't have to work, yay! So I helped out around the house and relaxed and then went over to Mike's house when he was off work. Saw a patch of ice and dirt outside his house that I thought would go great inside my knee, so I added some of it along with a huge bruise and some ripped and bloody pants. Yes. I fell. Saved the presents I was carrying though, so it was okay. Unfortunately, his whole family noticed and Jacque got out the first aid kit and they all watched as Mike patched me up. Embarrassing for sure.

Christmas was good, even though I still didn't feel good. I got an iPod from Mike that my computer hates and won't let me get anything on it so Mike has to do it for me for now until I get my own computer. Also got a PSP from Mom and Dad and some computer parts to get started with from my grandparents. Yay!

Now I've got a ton of stuff to do and I have to make sure that I have Wednesday though who knows when off from my works so I can be in pain for a while. Fun.

Off to work and clean now!

Sooooo...

2007-12-21T18:55:54Z

It seems like it's been forever since I wrote anything, and granted, it has been a while.

Just finished taking my last final, so I'm officially done with the semester, but anxiously waiting to see what my grades are. Mike is gone off to work immediately after, and I won't see him for a couple days because of our stupid schedules. Grrr. I can't go to Steph's Christmas part y any more because I'm covering for Krystallin. Who's leaving at the end of the year. And so is Aaron, meaning Brady will be manager. The one person I don't like working with because he always wants to leave early.

I have a huge list of things to do over break, and then I got sick. I had two finals this week: Thursday and Friday. I got sick: Thursday and Friday. How poetic. And lame.

So now that everyone knows my life hasn't changed a bit, I'm off to do more stuff. There's no one home but me! It's quiet. Maybe a nap would be nice, but I have an oil change at 3:30...

It's very cold and windy here right now. It's almost Christmas! Then I get my teeth yanked out! Wheeeeeee!!

Bye now.

Huzzah kazzah kazooie

2007-11-29T21:54:23Z

That's fun to say!

Tomorrow is an Expiration Date concert that I have the great honor of attending. Is on my birthday! Thanks for the present guys!

Today Jayce went with us to Aims because he was supposed to talk to someone about the accelerated course or some such. He couldn't find the place, so he went wandering off. We had to go retrieve him from the Burger King on 24th. Silly Jaycie Facie.

TSo did you notice all my paragraphs start with T?

Thomas is my friend.

Toasters make toast!

Turtles, I like.

Totally done now. Ü

seraphimfire @ 2007-11-22T19:21:00

2007-11-23T02:23:18Z

My phone's not working again... which means I can't talk to my ♥

I miss him. I miss the Carmike too... If I could go back in time... I would refuse to be a manager and keep my old job.

I don't want to work at Gamestop tomorrow...

All the ...'s must mean I'm tired. It's too early for bed, though.

Oh well. I have library books and a psych paper I don't want to write.